I don’t know where I got it from, but until recently, I would rather have jumped off the cliff of a raging waterfall than look embarrassed or stupid in front of people. I detest looking like I didn’t know what I was doing, or looking like a failure. But I realise now more than ever that these are issues I have to get over, and fast.
I was listening to this awesome audio by Dr. Brené Brown about The Power of Vulnerability, and it became clear as day to me that I have a deep fear for the slightest form of embarrassment brought upon me. Somewhere along the line I decided somewhere that it is a form of weakness, and because of this, I would lash out terribly towards anyone who made me look or feel silly, stupid, small or insecure. The problem with wanting to become a success at anything is, I am going to go through and feel all of these emotions.
The thing about your journey of personal growth, you are going to stumble. A lot. In front of your friends, in front of strangers, in front of your Facebook friends and twitter followers, whoever.
I stopped myself from doing videos the whole of last year because I decided that I was going to fall flat on my face and look like an utter fool! After spending so long allowing the fear to control me, I decided to take charge of it. I have put up 2 videos so far, and will do a third one this week. Do I feel stupid? Well… I still feel self conscious about it, but I keep reminding myself that these are my beginning stages, and I cannot let fear stop me from doing something I know I will eventually be brilliant at.
Looking stupid really means being vulnerable to others, and ourselves.
It means showing your insecurities, gaping flaws and mistakes to others, especially loved ones. Being openly vulnerable brings to the table a level of exposure that not many are prepared for. But it pays off big-time in the long run.
Vulnerability = Courage.
I think looking stupid is actually having the courage to do and be something you have always wanted, and finally doing and being that, despite what anyone has to say about it.
So don’t let the fear of looking stupid hold you back from your intentions. Do it. Let that fear wash over you, and you will see that this dread you had really is an illusion. It wasn’t as bad as your mind made it out to be.
So here’s to looking stupid. Cheers!